Friday, January 8

Missing school?

A friend of mine said to me on the phone the other day, "You know when there is a constant in your life, and you don't realize how much you love it until it's gone? And then, when you do get the opportunity to experience it again for a moment, when it's over, you go through a sort of postpartum depression?" Okay... that may not have been the EXACT quote, but you get the gist.

I never thought, at the time, that I would miss the daily grind of SCHOOL. Of all things to miss in life, I had to pick school. Really?

I miss walking around campus in wrinkled sweatpants and rain-spotted hoodies, with soggy socks sticking to my feet because I was too lazy to put on practical shoes that would keep them dry- and instead am wandering in my slippers from class to class. And even though I slept through that dreaded 8am class because I was up too late watching a movie, and even though I have a midterm this evening for a class in which I haven't even removed the plastic wrap from the textbook- I couldn't be better.

I know that today holds opportunity to run into a familiar, smiling face (or two or three) and grabbing a slice of American Dream pizza on Monroe between classes.

I know that today holds opportunity for new friends and acquaintances, and a chance to touch their lives with the love of Christ.

I know that today holds opportunity for direction to land in my hands and show me what to do for the rest of my life through something a professors says, through something I read in the Barometer, or through a fleeting thought that runs through my mind.

And if not today, then there's possibly tomorrow.

Campus life. I hate to say that I am going through withdrawals because really, I am so thankful to be done with the all-night study sessions, the cramming that comes with midterms and finals, and the crazy amount of effort that goes into scheduling just ONE meeting for a group project. But I do miss it, without a doubt.

Full-time-job-world is SO different. It has been teaching me a lot of new things, of course- things like diligence and responsibility, and the particular workplace I have for now is challenging me in things like compassion and patience. I have enjoyed growing in these areas so far, and know I will continue to learn as long as I am willing.

It is a different season of life, one that is still very new and takes adjusting, but it is by no means one I would pass up. Whatever the Lord throws my way, I want to take and run with for as long as He has me in it.

The spontaneity of skipping class just because I feel like going to the beach instead is no longer an option (at least for now), but the chance to mature and grow, learning from the real adults around me- that's a pretty good opportunity for today.


  1. I know what you mean friend...campus life is so fun and lively. i went through withdrawls too...sometimes the real world seems "dead" and isn't it the worst to have to pay gym fees now? xoxo

  2. Yes, it is ok to miss, but in agreement with your blog title, so much more important to move forward. I am happy and excited for the experiences I know are coming your way!

  3. Sis...change is always an adjustment. Thanks for giving me a very well-written stroll down memory lane. College is so much more than learning in classrooms--it's the EXPERIENCE itself. I have been in your shoes and it's not an easy adjustment--although mine was a little different and probably more of a relief to have college out of the way since I had started my full-time job in the "Real World" during my last year of school! Ha ha. But seriously, what you are feeling is totally normal. It's like adjusting to The Fall right after enjoying Spring and Summer--the cold and the rain comes back and change is in the air. But after enough of them, Autumn begins to become a nice time of year--you begin to see the beautiful colors and sometimes even appreciate the rainy feel outside, while seeing the faithfulness of God in the busy schedule that the Fall always seems to bring. It is only a matter of time until you will adapt with this new season of life you are in. And knowing you, I have complete confidence that you are going to come through it safely and thriving. Hang in there--love you.